I am 'Here'

I couldn't have found a better title and post to write than "I am 'Here'". This is where I exactly want to be and this exact time - not thinking about the baby who is being escorted home by his dad, not thinking about the brother who doesnt talk, not thinking about what I want to do and definitely not thinking about what I could have been doing. I am to be here in this present moment, whole and soul, doing exactly what I am doing right now, writing. And that is the resolution I take for this year.

I want to be here when I am playing with my baby, I want to be here when I am cooking, I want to be here when I am working. Mind drifts away in a million directions but all I want is to be here and experience the 'now'.

Another part which I wanted to get out was how much I expect the spouse to be a better spouse, when I read, how much so and so spouse is supporting one's cause or giving leeway or this or that, I think how come He doesnt do this or that, what I dont stop to think is what am I doing? I want to be a better spouse, as much as I can, not a bit more and certainly not any less. Not anyone's definition of what a good spouse should be but mine. I want to improve the quality of life for me as a wife, as a mother, as a daughter. I want to be 'Here' for Him.