If you are expecting to read regret in all its obnoxious form over past relationships or broken hearts or life or marriage or anything serious, this is not the place you should be looking at.
Regret - It is such a heavy word with loads of emotional baggage attached. I, for one, dont generally regret or repent what I have done or any of the decisions I picked from a choice. Hell, I dont even remember half the things I did. Though yesterday I did feel why people say only if they can go back in time and change an incident or do it another way or do something so that the circumstances wont be the same.
I have recently started driving and the experience has been over-whelming for my fellow commuters. I always have this lump in my throat when I drive and if its about going to a new place, where I have previously not driven by myself, I am almost in tears. I hold the steering like its the only hope of life. My brakes become an extension of my body and accelerator is arch rival.
I also feel very cold in general. I have the heater blowing at full speed in my car in winters, only yesterday this was to prove detrimental. On my way back home, I went to my Office Garage, started my car, didnt start my heater however (I should have, I should have). I parked on the 5 th floor so obviously had a long way down. When I was nearing the exit I suddenly realized I am cold and need heater ASAP. No doubt I went ahead and started it, only to take my eyes off the path for a split second and hit sideways to a wall, BAM!!! I had taken a deep turn and there it was this big dent on my car !!!! I was worse than having measles all over my body. My poor car just gave a moan and a jolt (though my husband spoke on behalf of the car and man, was it belittling, he should have been in law enforcement).
On getting down, I could do nothing more but to check the damage down. My Miss Nancy Blue is permanently scarred (well, at least till it gets a make-over, which is out of my budget right now).
I so very much want to go back to that brief second in time, where I would take a wide turn and NEVER EVER take my eyes off the road, not even if I am travelling with Brad Pitt. How I regret feeling cold, if only I could, I would......go back in time....
